you know the inevitable aftermath of any action is? it comes back to you. and since anything has two sides, something good must also contain a bad side. and there's always a contradiction within every action anyone takes. if they can't find one, they just haven't thought about it. in order to prove something, something else has to be negated. that's why it's so hard to define right and wrong; because both are valid in reason.
in an attempt to prove something right, i contradicted a fact. now that i think about it, i couldn't have proved one side without damaging the other. but for the side that i did harm, i'm sorry.
it's such a hard balance to maintain. if you take one side, you tip the other, and all that you have accumulated on the scale up to that point falls. being the mediator, the middle of the see-saw is harder than it seems. you are the center divider that keeps things in balance; at the same time, you are the verge between sanity and insanity. the problem is, sanity doesn't reside on a side; it lives in the narrow boundary between the chaos. thus, maintaining balance retains sanity, and tipping either side results in madness.
but then we have to realize that every truth plants a seed of insanity. if that statement is true, doesn't that mean truth tips the scale and provokes sanity to whirl into a spiral of disaster? but lies yield the same effect.
that is the reason why we should never mix the two sides together. as mediator, we are the only ones who can keep track of both sides.
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